Am I
that exceptional? I keep reading in the NY Times and listening on NPR, those
bastions of liberal thought that humans are genetically/biologically hard wired
to believe in the supernatural. If so,
my wiring must be really messed up. T.M.Luhrmann’s recent article on the op-ed page cites the high percentage of Americans who believe in various kinds of
superstitions like angels, haunted houses, etc.
Citing the United States as the norm is absurd and I am pleased to
report that 64% of the French are agnostic or atheist. (Another reason, in addition to their vastly
superior health and social services and food, to live there?)
What
really got me was a letter to the editor responding to the article by Professor
Shane Sharp, whose studies showed that “Ms. Luhrmann’s claim that experiencing
God’s realness is difficult may be correct; however, my research indicates that
traumatic life events make God real.” For the record, I neither cursed God,
blamed God or asked for intervention from God, an angel or some higher
power. And not to make myself into a
martyr, but I do consider a cancer diagnosis a “traumatic life event.” What I don’t understand about these
evolutionary biologists is why I don’t see studies from France, Scandinavia or
other countries where levels of belief are comparatively lower. Surely there will always be people who
believe in God and various types of superstitions, but belief in a higher power
clearly has a cultural component, can change over time, and Is not some sort of
biological imperative. Either that or the
majority of the French, the Swedish and I are freaks of nature! And while I remain an agnostic, the possible
God I believe in is best described as the “Church of God, the Utterly
Indifferent,” from Kurt Vonnegut’s The
Sirens of Titan. (“The name of the new religion, said Rumfoord, is The
Church of God the Utterly Indifferent. . . The two chief teachings of this religion
are these: Puny man can do nothing at all to help or please God Almighty, and
Luck is not the hand of God.”)
Enough
of my annoyances with these studies creating scientific justifications for
faith. I imagine many believers might
also be annoyed by these studies. Let’s
get on with a discussion of my life, the reason most of you are probably
reading this. I got on the plane on the
Thursday after my treatment and have not developed any superpowers. I bought a bottle of 15 year old Bowmore
Scotch whiskey in the duty free with my leftover Swiss Francs, got on the plane
only to discover that my seat was next to a six year old boy. Many of you might want to avoid a small child
on airplane, but I was told to avoid contact with small children and pregnant
women after my irradiation. Fortunately,
I spoke with a flight attendant and got another seat in the last row unfortunately
near the bathrooms. C’est la vie.
After I
returned home, I found myself suffering from a constant fatigue and basically
sat around the apartment from Friday-Monday watching lots of television,
reconsidering Star Trek: Enterprise (all Star Trek TV series are now on Netflix
instant) and watching the Monty Python six part documentary. Later my friend Claudia and I watched “MontyPython’s Life of Brian” a classic satire on religion and Trotskyist political
sects (a different form of religion?) . I was able to return to work on Tuesday where
I helped to edit and advise on our latest YouTube video, “Fiorello La GuardiaTakes a Sledge Hammer to Slot Machines: Let's Go to the VIDEO!” La Guardia hated gambling and its effects on
working class families. and cops frequently cleared out slot machines from
stores in NYC during his tenure.
Fiorello would then have them put on a boat where he would ceremoniously
take a hammer to them and have them dumped into Long Island Sound. One does not have wonder much what La Guardia
would have thought of Andrew Cuomo’s proposals for casino gambling or, for that
matter, Cuomo in general. After Cuomo
came out against Bill de Blasio’s proposal of a modest tax increase to fund pre-K
and after school programs, I came up with his new reelection slogan, “Andrew
Cuomo, no millionaire he won’t kow tow to.”
Last
Saturday I decided I felt well enough for a 60 mile ride in Central New
Jersey. It was a beautiful day and a
wonderful ride, but I wasn’t quite ready for it and came back exhausted. I fell
asleep at 8:00 and woke up the next morning with a headache and still very
tired. I still had a headache that
evening. I’m not sure what the causes
were: dehydration, post radiation effects or both, but I may have misjudged my
recovery time. I saw Dr. Yu on Monday
and my blood work was pretty normal. A
couple of tests were slightly elevated, but looked good otherwise. The plan for now is the Sandostatin shot I
had already been receiving as my only treatment. We talked about the possibility of
chemoembolization to get at larger tumors on the liver, but we’ll wait and see.
We will have a clearer sense of things
after my next CT Scan in mid-December and no scheduled doctor visits until
then. With any luck I will have a few
years of peace from cancer and lead as normal a life as I am capable of in the
interim. Then it will be back to Basel
in search of superpowers.
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